Never did I imagine I’d be wary of spring break. I’ve been counting down the days, but it isn’t the same. I’m tired but not in the way I’m normally tired. It’s a stuck sort of tired. Tired of being stuck in the unknown, having to roll with whatever comes our way, like it or not. Weary and wary.
Sure, that’s how life usually happens, but there’s this heavy lull. I look on the bright side, at least I like to believe I try. I’m an apathetic teen who isn’t in the mood to do anything, but wants something to do. I’m looking forward to the break, but I’m not, because breaks have been anything but breaks. I want to go places, but I also want to sleep in.
I only have a week and I don’t know whether or not I want to look forward to it. I’m skeptical and working on optimism. One more day. I can make it one more day. Then I’ll wait to see what happens. Take one day at a time. An hour at a time. Still.
Nerds Beget Nerds 
I’m so jealous. Our university is skipping spring break this year to prevent students from traveling and bringing back covid – to protect the nest. Instead, we have a few random days off, called “Spring Study Days” sprinkled mid-week throughout our semester. But, you know how those days go – they are catch up days. Yet, I feel you weary and wary. Like you, I have not words to describe it. Enjoy your break. Spend time outside, take some naps, dream of summer. 🙂
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“I am working on optimism” – I think this is exactly the phrase I was looking for. I hope your spring break will bring small pleasures and plenty of rest.
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I feel your pain! It is so hard when all you want to do is go somewhere, anywhere. I am looking forward to break to catch up on so many parts of life that have fallen apart.
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It definitely sounds like a difficult time and in view of the current world situation it must be tough. There is a new feeling of tiredness around that wasn’t there a year ago. I hope you can get through it, as you say, one day at a time.
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